This is a spiritual experience with Prince Rogers Nelson, who has so much to teach us that we still get to have access to on the Earth plane. The art from this triple cd Prince put out in 2009 tells me he intended it to be for psychedelic experiences.
Your intuitive action isn't even going to be the most bonkers thing someone experiences that day, it's likely less bonkers than half the stuff on Fox News. And also we are long past letting people thinking we are nuts keep us from doing the thing we know is right for us.
Most people who offer opinions on my life don't have a life (or a self image) I would trade with them.
I consider myself a '62 Cadillac, either pastel pink or baby blue depending on my mood. But I maintain myself! And I'm getting better at it every day!
"Albums still matter. Like books and Black lives. Albums still matter."--Prince Rogers Nelson
Welcome back to Bevin's playlist! I'm the algorithm now! If art decorates our walls, music decorates our time!
Art is one of the most long lasting things someone can create! I want to amplify artists who are way showers in these Revolutionary times. Here are some things I suggest you check out!
That playlist connected me to a time when things were very hard, uncertain and painful for me as a child without anyone to guide me through it. And now that I'm a grown-up, with tools and patience and unconditional love and acceptance for my inner child, I can be the safe space she needed to process those Big Feels.
It's been over a year and my service has been exactly the same as it was at regular Verizon and my bill is exactly $25 a month (no taxes to me!), deducted on the same day of the month. I have traveled and I have been home in the woods and both are the same as it was before.
"My job is not my identity" is such an accurate thing to say because, in capitalism, making our identity about how we create capital for the state makes that the most important thing we do. I believe we incarnate on Earth to perfect how we love one another and ourselves. That has more to do with being the best person we can be, not the best at making money or being "successful" in the eyes of capitalism.
Immunity is a group project and we would be in a better situation if more folks took personal responsibility for their immune systems and behavior!
In 2021 I got the nudge to start teaching about my spiritual self care practice. I responded “who me?” Though my ego was telling me I was unqualified even as a Reiki Master, start before you’re ready is a good motto to follow to push aside ego’s fear barriers. I launched this series of lessons in 2021 on my Patreon with the intention to stop at 12 and have just kept going. It’s turned into a sweet class and I’ve got even more brewing.
I began my spiritual practice fifteen years ago and it has woven into some of my most potent self care work. Surrendering to the Divine mystery and opening myself up to spiritual help has created so much peace and ease for me, as I hope it will for you! It feels vulnerable to post about this because it’s so intimate. But as with everything on my blog, podcast and patreon it’s with the intention to help you, which helps me get through the vulnerability.
As with all things, take what you like/what resonates and leave the rest. These are all just what I do; I’ve gathered and sifted from what I’ve learned from others and from my guides. Develop your own practice that nourishes you! And you don’t need to follow the Zodiac seasons, you can just do what interests you. I used that as a framework for creation when I got this curriculum started.
Spiritual Hygiene (FREEEEEE to all because I think it’s so life changing/world changing)
Video: https://www.patreon.com/posts/129149806
Accompanying Meditation: https://www.patreon.com/posts/salt-and-light-129474114
The rest of these posts are at the Spiritual Lessons tier or higher, or you can buy access to the collection, which I will continue to add to. The tier/collection also includes a few of my most woo woo stretch aerobics classes. (The willow tree morning prayer class is so cute.)
I AM Easy to Love Inner Child Practice https://www.patreon.com/posts/128987447
Using Your Body as a Pendulum to sharpen intuition! You can use your body to ask simple yes or no questions of our intuition! https://www.patreon.com/posts/using-your-body-64801522
Feeling Fully Self Expressed: A Ritual & Journal Journey https://www.patreon.com/posts/130814264
Embodied Fear Spiritual Release Practice: If fear seizes your body frequently–this is a good one. https://www.patreon.com/posts/124386983
Pisces Season: Cord Cutting Video: https://www.patreon.com/posts/84937057 Accompanying Meditation: https://www.patreon.com/posts/84936842
Practical Magic Fall Video #4–Habits and my daily walks https://www.patreon.com/posts/78190633
Practical Magic Fall 3: Using Your Imagination for Protection & Information https://www.patreon.com/posts/practical-magic-73281803
Practical Magic Fall #2: Transmuting Violent Communication and Annoying Circumstances https://www.patreon.com/posts/practical-magic-72551835
Capricorn Season: Travel Protection and Angel Numbers! I have a few prayers and visualizations I do when I hit the road! https://www.patreon.com/posts/60559413
Sagittarius Season Spiritual Pillar: Sex Magic Lesson with Ashley Manta the Cannasexual! https://www.patreon.com/posts/59358418
Scorpio Season Spiritual Pillar! Talking to dead people! The veil is always thin because it’s a veil. Have you been curious about talking to your dead people?https://www.patreon.com/posts/58133575
Libra Season Spiritual Pillar! Plant Medicine! I use plant medicine for so many reasons in so many nurturing ways, but especially to foster connection with my true self and the Divine. https://www.patreon.com/posts/57414252
Virgo Season Spiritual Pillar: Oracle and Tarot Cards! I teach some basics about card reading (BASICS). More intimately, I introduce my elite team of three card decks and share with you how I use my cards! https://www.patreon.com/posts/virgo-season-and-55556576
Leo Season Spiritual Pillar: Boundaries! Emotional boundaries are vital to the discovery of who I really am (essentially, the spiritual journey is the discovery of your true & ever evolving Self!). https://www.patreon.com/posts/leo-season-54311873
Cancer Season Spiritual Pillar–Creating Bridges with Ancestors & Guides. I (had) recently begun a practice of consciously connecting to the ancestors and guides at least once a day. Here’s how I started (and I’ve continued doing it three years and change later!) https://www.patreon.com/posts/53133765
Anointing! Gemini Season Spiritual Pillar! I walk you through my practice and tour through the oils I use and how I work with each one. https://www.patreon.com/posts/51937545
Altar Spaces! Taurus Season Spiritual Pillar I live in a tiny space with five altars inside! I take you on a tour to talk about how to start what works for you! https://www.patreon.com/posts/50695202
Crystals! Aries Season: Let’s talk crystals and how I use them to amplify my self care! (Hacks about cheapest places to get crystals, too!) https://www.patreon.com/posts/49423832
Practical Magic Fall Video 1: The Mystery of the Crystals https://www.patreon.com/posts/72358861
Working with Dragons! Dragons are part of the healing I do as a Reiki Master for folks when they have Covid. I also use Dragons for protection and assistance with anything that needs fire or air magic. Video: https://www.patreon.com/posts/46105127
Audio guided meditation: https://www.patreon.com/posts/46108457
Archive–my 2021 Spiritual Hygiene teaching/practice for Aquarius season:
Video: https://www.patreon.com/posts/48096791
Accompanying Meditation: https://www.patreon.com/posts/spiritual-48096675
May you walk in peace and prosperity! Many blessings on your journey! Blessed be!
Hello my fellow ADHD cuties and/or fellow bibliophiles who love information and letting someone else read to you! I am actively “debillionairing” my life and my spending. Here’s a post about how I reduced my cell phone bill to 25 bucks a month and kept Verizon service!
By 2023 I got down to almost no Amazon money spent except for my $15 monthly audible membership. I joined audible before it was gobbled by Amazon when it was still indie. (Does that make me sound like a hipster? I’m honestly fine I do enjoy when I find something before it goes corporate.)
However tenuous “owning” digital copies of audiobooks on a proprietary app actually is; I didn’t have much concern over the effects of corporate and billionaire resource hoarding at that time. That changed and in 2023 I finally decided to see what happened when I canceled because I didn’t want to give a penny more to Bezos if I could help it.
I got to keep all the audiobooks I paid for–which is 113, almost ten years worth of my monthly audible credit. (I think I canceled a couple of times when I didn’t have a daily reading habit.)
I can still access my audible library (I had to keep the app) and listen to any of them. I frequently relisten to Brandi Marie Carlile’s autobiography–there are always more nuggets and it’s a soothing thing to have playing if I need “company” while I’m falling asleep.
I now use three resources for audiobooks!
The Libby App: This is through my local library!
Go get a library card! It’s so revolutionary to support these vital resources and simply having a card matters for each branch’s metrics. They don’t have every book but when they do have a book it’s nice to “rent” accesss to it for 2-3 weeks. (And it gets me to finish one book instead of listening to six at once.)
To get shorter wait times for holds on Libby, find out if there are any additional libraries that your library has reciprocity with. I was able to get access to the Seattle library system this way and the app automagically looks to see which branch has the shortest wait time for holds and they have a bigger catalog than my local branch system.
Libby also has digital books you can borrow (I want to call them Kindle books but there are other platforms to read digitally ack I don’t like having Amazon branding in my language like that).
My library also has access to an app called Hoopla which I have downloaded but not really used. There are audiobooks on there! And movies, TV shows and music. Reminds me of Brandi’s story of getting Elton John cds from the library as a kid and changing her life. I rented the Tales of the City miniseries from my library on VHS and changed my life.
The Libro.Fm app: This is an audiobook site that supports the indie bookstore of your choice! I support Charis Books & More in Decatur, GA because I want that resource to exist in a red state and feminist bookstores don’t have the kind of traffic they once did.
Their monthly membership costs the same as Audible. ($15 a month.) Join Libro and I get a little book credit so please use my link so I can get wiser!
While renting books briefly is nice I actually like being able to come back to books or take my time with them. And there are a few I wanted that Libby didn’t have. I’m slowly reading Love in a F*ed up World: How to Build Relationships, Hook Up and Raise Hell Together by Dean Spade and All About Love by bell hooks.
I recently got to visit Charis books and asked the owner if they get much from Libro and she said we get a bit and it helps but not a bunch. But that’s still better than the bit Bezos would get and pay for another yacht for his yacht.
Spotify: Spotify has audiobooks included in their premium plan. They actually have a lot of books, I was surprised. Part of my plan for withdrawing my attention from Instagram was putting my attention on the works of Octavia E Butler this year. I’ve whipped through her Patternist series and just finished the Lillith’s Brood series. I could only get a couple of the books on Libby so it was rad to find them on Spotify.
Warning: you only get fifteen hours of listening time for audiobooks per month. It’s hard to find your hour tracker on the app but if you click your profile pic, settings & privacy, click on your plan (my click says “premium individual”), then at the top of the list it has a book icon and you click to see how much time you have logged til your next billing date. I’m on hour 14 and voraciously reading Parable of the Sower.
I want to acknowledge Spotify is a corporation who robs artists (here’s an article about the CEO compensation). I would love to see a co-op of mega artists band together and buy Spotify, take it off Wall Street it and make it a fair wage platform for creators. My plan is to eventually move to Tidal which seems like the best streaming option for artists.
We are all doing the best we can where we are. A revolution isn’t a single event, it doesn’t even have to be a bloody war. It can be the radical act of all of us changing where just a small percent of our spending goes. And tipping more! Tipping is a revolutionary act.
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The Finch App is a daily habit tracker that goads one into self care activities so that you can buy your lil bird pet outfits and accessories for their birdhouse.
I reflected on withdrawing my attention from Instagram & Facebook and using Finch for cheap dopamine in exchange for self care tasks.
Recently I had the greatest challenge to my daily self care practice—going out of town and on gaycation. The disruption from the systems in my day to day life—where I keep my vitamins on the table so there is less barrier to remember to take them with meals, an altar plate to leave ancestor offerings—throw me off track.
The more self care I have the better Bevin I can be and in these increasingly bonkers times I need the groundedness and stability I create from these routine nourishments. (Especially my tummy microbiome support when indulging in rich foods-God gives her weakest digestion to her hottest soldiers.)
Behavior is nourishment and spending just a few minutes meditating or visualizing an energetic cleanse brings me right back to center.
The first part of this gaycation was around a lot of people and I took many moments to meditate alone on our balcony and feed my Finch the self care she needs to thrive. It’s so helpful to have a list of demands (I mean, tasks) to attend to when I am away from my routine but want to return to center. That sense of safety inside myself needs continual attention lest the brain weasels come through and try to hijack my good time.
As your Finch grows it increasingly demands more activity to create rewards (makes sense). I recently grew Blanche into an adult and now have to get more strategic. In many ways my list of tasks is aspirational—I rarely finish all of them but they function as good ideas in a moment. But Finch is also good for daily work tasks and organizing your day or week.
I really like that when I’m not having a great day in the mood check in I get some extra points for my activities because it does take more effort to break through the walls of resistance. I am doing significantly more breathwork because of Blanche and I get focus timer activity points and meditation timer bonus points.
I’m in two different Discord communities that have Finch App threads where we discuss our birbs and strategies. Laundry is five tasks by the way—sorting, washing, drying, folding and putting away. A nugget I learned from an organizational guru twenty years ago (shout out FLY Lady) and that plays out well for Finch rainbow stones during this era of smart phones and cheap dopamine.
Anyway, other than my one day with a violent stomach bug (thankfully didn’t set in til I was back at Rachael’s in the downtime portion of my gaycation) I have been entirely consistent with taking my supplements twice daily and so many more self care tasks I tend to slack on when I’m away from home, thanks to this app. Highly recommend!
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